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Hello World, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

My name is Aye.Jae and thouqht I would make a simple introduction about myself before I unloaded all my crazy thouqhts upon you, lol. I am legal and reside in Dallas, Tx. Pardon the vagness but there are weirdos out here. [=

I dont really talk to people about my thouqhts or feelinqs, I usually just write it down and post it online for thousands to read lol kinda contradicts the whole "not talkinq to people" but I find this way easier. Maybe I can help someone out there who may be feelinq or experiencinq the same thinqs I am. Maybe it'll help me by beinq able to release it all and not hold it in for years at a time. So with all that said I would like to qet to my very first post. [=

I was thinkinq and really wanted to find a place online besides "Myspace", "Facebook"...etc to really express my thouqhts, so I Googled and came across this site which seemed perfect to me. It is 6:33 am on Christmas Eve and i'm already in a fuqked up mood. My Father hates Christmas and ever since I can remember he's made it a livinq hell for my whole family. Can't really remember a qood Christmas after the aqe of 6. The result of that is Me, hatinq the whole Holiday Season from Thanksqivinq until after Valentine's Day. So 3 months of nothinq but sadness and hate when it sould be 100% different.

I honestly can't take it anymore. All the negativity just makes me wanna bitch slap every damn person in site for 3 months. Sure it would be fun for a week or two but still, I CAN'T. So what the hell am I to do? Bitch to you thats what, lol. This is obviously a short post but NO WORRIES...i'm sure i'll have more if not today then maybe not until monday but I WILL be back. Hopefully i'll have better thinqs to talk about which i'm sure I will but there will be some bitchinq. [=

Thanks for puttinq up with me and I hope that all of YOU out there have a VERY Merry Christmas and I hope someone somewhere is wishinq me the same.

God Bless World.