Wishful Preminition

Hey Dolls;

This blog is just about what I wish will happen in the future. Forgive me but I cant get to detailed due to its all still ongoing, but basically this is about where I would like to be in 6 months and what I wish to have accomplished by that time. Emotionally wise I would like to be stronger than ever. I would like for that Army Brat mentality to have kicked in and taken over. I dont want to be "12 years old" mentally anymore. For those of you who dont know a few years back I went through something that did a number on me mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I felt like I had regressed mentally back to being 12 years old. I was afraid of every single thing, I wouldnt leave the house, I hardly ever seen my friends anymore. I think that will change now though only because it has no choice but to since my world has changed. In 6 months I hope to be in a better position to help my mama and I HAVE to be in school considering its only a 6 month course, after that I will be making really good money. I hope mentally wise I am able to think about my father and not cry or get upset but to smile and feel like I KNOW I am making him proud. I wanna be smarter about life more so than I am now. I hope to become as strong as my Father was, he didnt let anything stand in his way. I hope to have the mentality of a provider so my mother has no more worries. I would like to make it to where she doesnt need to work. As far as everything else (this is where I cant get into detail) but I hope and pray justice is served the right way because what had taken place is pure negligence. I believe justice will be served so I have hope. Thats about all that I can hope for at this moment. I cant put too much pressure on myself because I know that will deter me and get me off track...that happens quite often. I hope to be able to focus a lot more and have a lot more inner strength. I think I can achieve that dont you?? Well loves I am going to leave it here. Just wanted to post something...get these thoughts out of my head so I can focus on other things that need my attention. Until next time Dolls!!

Aye.Jae